Courting @ Mengorat tu Buang Masa!! Betul Ke?

Once upon a time, there was a little boy who live down the hill, he got nothing to do except sleep all the time. There itu orang panggil buang masa, and you guys did buang masa korang sebab cuba nak baca. Kalau korang panggil mengorat buang masa, then it means korang desperate. sama ada orang tua push suruh kahwin atau korang sendiri tak sabar nak kahwin. All of the above maybe because korang rasa selalu sangat hati dikecewakan. Kata korang lah, bukan aku Okay! So back to the main thing, aku nak cakap pasal benda yang korang declare buang masa nie, adlah sesuatu yang penting untuk tahu sama ada orang yg kita courting nie adalah untuk kita atau bukan untuk kita. Contoh bila kita abaikan couritng nie, marriage tak kekal atau tak bahagia, walaupun ada anak tiga. I dare said in their mind right now, is that they wish sebelum kahwin dulu dia tahu perangai sebenar lelaki /perempuan yang dia nak kahwin tu. Sekarang anak dah 3, nak bercerai banyak bende kene pertimbangkan. Then baru kau ada akal buang masa ke tidak. not that i have experience in this, but i do know people and that about it with people, and eventho experience aku kurang, sebab kan bende2 nie la aku kurang yakin untuk sembang pasal nak kahwin. I can do promise that we will eventually talk about marriage (since buat anak tak kahwin salah baiii) and i can do meet up with parent (im sure im good with parent..i think, berpeluh2 fikir), saying that im serious. Im sure korang pun ada masalah sendiri and ada experience sendiri yang menyebab kan korang rasa courting nie buang masa, tapi for a long run, kenal satu sama lain ada faedah, and jangan mudah percaya tengok cerita drama. timeframe dalam mvie/drama nie walaupun habes dalam satu hari, aku confirm it takes more or less 3 years baru hero tu ada keyakinan nak jumpa bapak heroein, nak ajak kawin..haha..:P.. now to make it about me, and it is about me, jangan nak fikir pasal hero drama yg kaya2 tu.aku nie penarik beca jaa..Teman rapat panggil aku, Amir, and i prefer that too, there is a few name used to call me by others, which i would really like to disclose it to my dear friends. anyway aku dilahirkan di Kuala Lumpur, Sentul to be exact. and membesar di situ sampai umur 4 tahun, and moved to Puchong and live there thru out zaman kanak2 dan remaja. which aku sedikit blur2. sebab aku tak ingat..and bila orang tanya kawan2 puchong aku ingat most is 10 people, but mostly only their nickname, kau tanya aku nama penuh alamat, mampus aku tak ingat dah..mungkin satu dua la , itupun kalau depa tak pindah. Yes aku masih contact dorang, and im in the whatsapp group but i dont think im alive there.. semua ini adalah keran zaman aku adalah zaman orang kejar Sekolah Teknik lepas PMR. ahaha..and walaupun tak jauh,aku di tendang ke Sekolah Shah Alam and lost all my contact from Puchong High School ever since. Eventho ade je member lain yg masuk Teknik lain, and masih bersama dalam group tu, aku jeles bila nampak, tapi itu mereka and ini aku.. Im not taht friendly, and aku suka bercakap, tapi aku tak nak bersembang kalau takde context. Thats all to it, of my life, and im in coma for the whole 3 - 7 years after graduate form 5, LOL..nah im in college and that just about it for now kalau nak tahu, contact la aku. sebuk je nak baca...DAaaaaa...

Bilik Gelap

Lampu bilik ditutup,
Lampu komputer riba menerangi,
Seluruh tubuh badan berasa lenguh,
Aku baring menghadap syiling bilik,
Memperhati setiap ceruk bilik yg kini gelap,
Fikiran mula melayang,
Makin ditenung dinding bilik makin jauh fikiran berterbangan,
Bagai ditiup kipas meja,
Disinilah kenangan lama bertandang,
Satu persatu ia muncul,
Pada mulanya sungguh manis,
Tetapi mula menjadi duri,
Semakin banyak kenangan lama yang berkumpul,
Semakin gelap pandangan mata ini,
Seperti awan hitam yang membawa ribut hujan.
Bermula dari zaman sekolah,
Satu persatu diperlihatkan,
Satu persatu diperhatikan,
Setiap kenangan mula menyakitkan,
Tiada lansung keceriaan,
Tiada lansung kemanisan,
Apa yang aku dah lakukan,
Menyakitkan hati orang,
Melukakan hati orang,
Lihatlah sekarang,
Aku yang sakit,
Aku yang merana,
Kalaulah aku tidak memulakannya,
Pasti sekarang aku bahagia,
Pasti sekarang aku gembira,
Inilah balasan orang seperti aku,
Dia tunjukkan padaku,
Bagaimana rasa nya disakiti,
Bagaimana rasa nya tidak dipeduli,
Sungguh gelap hati aku,
Berdoa minta keampunan,
Sama sekali tidak dilakukan,
Sungguh gelap jiwa aku,
Jiwa aku kosong,
Hanya kerana perbuatan lampau,
Betapa gelap nya hati aku ini,
Betapa gelap nya jiwa aku ini,
Hinggakan tidak dapat lagi rasanya aku menerima,
Tidak dapat lagi aku menaruh harapan,
Tidak dapat lagi aku memilih,
Berhenti setakat ini,
Aku hanya menunggu kebenaran,
Menunggu kepastian,
Menunggu kewujudan,
Wujudnya keajaiban dalam hidup ini,
Hati aku sungguh hitam,
Hinggakan aku tak sanggup lagi menunggu,
Biarlah masa yang menentukan,
Biarlah masa yang membawa aku,
Aku sanggup bersendirian dari ahti ini disakiti lagi,
Aku sanggup berjauhan dari jiwa aku keperitan,
Biarlah aku dengan dunia aku.

Menunggu kucing bertanduk

salah siapa..silap silap..
kerajaan, negeri, dunia..
tiada politik dalam drama aku nie..
apa yang aku buat selama nie...
apa yang dia buat selama nie...
semua nya menghala ke aku...
aku yang salah...aku yang mengada2..really??

Penunggu Setia

Aku, cuma seorang lelaki yang biasa,
melangkah sehari demi sehari,
mencari erti kehidupan,
kemanisan dan juga kebahagia-an,

Ketibaan kemanisan hanyalah sementara,
tetapi kemanisan itulah yang juga yang di kejar semua orang,

Another HeartBreaker..

hello...
assalamualaikum....
its another sad story for me....
I thing this will be falling onto me until I can make them understand...
I may have make the god angry  or else why did HE make my life so miserable....
first thing first I'd never had this feeling for such a long time ago...
I think it is about five years ago that I get to feels like this...
and now the heartbreaking sad love story revealing themselves...

I found this girl when I live at wak tasirin's house...
she is one of a student at PSIS.....
now she might be an ex-student as she had just finish her last exam paper last Thursday...
I didn't remember about how I get to know her...
but I could only remember that I have been her friend for about 3 month...
and the feeling of love burst out of my heart and got stuck to his door knob....
this door can lead me to his heart.....
even though the door is not locked....
it is hard for me to push it open.....
there is something that make its stuck.....
and it continue stuck for a month or more.....
and just to make it a better story i got a conformation that she is someone's else girlfriend...
even after i know this, i continue to fools myself trying to get her attention....
this is where i learn that her relationship is on the edge and could stumble any time.....
without wasting time i try to persuade her to break their relationship...
without realising that she could been hurt by the thought of breaking with her boyfriend....
such a clumsy boy i am....
and the story goes on until yesterday....
without declaring with me she treat me as she accepting me in her life....
not long ago we had a fight......
it seems that i know something that shouldn't be known to any human being accept her....
it is an information that would get me an award of the best detective of the world...
and so the fight continue until one and a half hours ago.....
she feels so ashamed as if she would die because of the info that i know.... 
and when the fight done....
she said the we should continue be friend...
as i have promise her that i would be by her side whenever she need me....
BUT...how can i ????/
doesn't she know anything about a boy ego's.....
the boy had just been dumped....
why should he continue to disgrace his life....
it is not the question now.....
what i thnk right now is i should just get away....
from all of this love sickness....love is just a burden anyway...
but i really love her deep in my heart...
please give me a reason to stay by your side...
please......!!!!! i really love you....